What is Your Path?
Other, Non-specific personal Paganism, Hellenic Recon, Stregheria, Roman Recon, Witch
About Me
There are so many facets to my "personality" if you will....I am presently working from home, so I have a lot more free time on my hands...so I've joined several "socializing sites" as I call them, to find others from all over, that have similar interest. I came across this site by accident, and I'm glad I did...I am going to be spending some time getting more familiar with this site, as I do, I will update my personal information.
But in short....I'm a 42 year old mom of 5 grown children..I live with my boyfriend of 11 years. He was my bestfriend, until recently...(I won't get into too much personal info just yet...), but because of our recent complications, I find myself to feel very lonely, and unsure...but such is life. I absolutely love life. I am a recovering addict, and I have been clean and sober for over 12 years now...I was blind to life for many years, until that faithful day that my eyes were opened. I never practiced a set religion. I grew up in what we called a "Roman Catholic" home, though no-one truly followed the path. My mother has always pretty much practiced Santeria/voodoo..and is now what they call a Mambo priestess, and if very well known, and respected in her craft. I never took to it growing up, but kept an open mind. I believed, but never practiced. I find that I am curious about several "religiosn" (though I feel "religions" are man-made, and so I call myself "spiritual"...I believe in a Higher power, and I am getting used to the idea and prospect of other higher beings..."
For the past year and a half I have been studying up on Wicca, Paganism, Shamanism, etc....and have been endulging in practicing certain rituals...I've done a couple of spells, but I want to really zone into my "gifts",(which by the way I've always possessed. The gift of "sight" and premonitions...and I possess a strong "WILL"..). I was introduced to Wicca when I first got into recovery by a woman who was sponsering me at the time...She was, and still is a very wonderful friend, and human being. She educated me about being a witch....Unfortuantely I had the same mentality as so many do, from watching Hollywood portray witches as evil...She is a witch, and I never known anyone less evil then her...so I learned that being a "Witch" does not mean that you are evil, and do evil things.
She taught me to center my feminity...and my strengths. Which also helped me with my self-esteem, which is what many addicts lack. We usually feel less than dirt. She helped me to learn how to take control of my "will" and to become humble, and to learn of sacrifice, and learned how to Pray...and ask for what I need with out guilt about caring for "Myself" for once. You see, I am also a very "Codependent" individual. I am in what I call "remission" and am learning a day at a time how to care for "self"...and not put other's before my own needs. It has also taught me how to set "boundaries" and not let others take advantage of me, and learn the difference between "self-centeredness" and "Self love". And in order for me to be able to do this, I must also find the balance in loving others, nature, and all of God's creatures.
Now, with all this, I still choose to believe in Jesus Christ......I am an advent Bible reader. (I find it to be a very well written book, and if anything else, very interesting. Do I buy into everything that is said? of course not. But just like with everything, you take what is useful to your own personal needs, and forget the rest. So you see, I do feel less confused, but I am searching for a "healthy balance" with my faith, and spiritualism.
Who am I or anyone to say what is the right or wrong way of expressing SPIRITUALISM, or FAITH. I will continue to study various religions, and practices, but for now, I hold true to calling myself a "witch"...practicing Wicca...in the Shamanistic ways...and I also infuse Santeria in some of my Magick work....(my darling mate is bugging me to get off the computer, but I kindly told him that I was presently busy...dinner is ready, and he can either serve himself, or wait...)
Anywho...where was I...well, anyways...I love to draw, it's a passion of mine, and I'm pretty good. I call my art work, "Doodle art"...plus I do sketches and stuff. I love all of nature...and I absolutely love my cats....they are my family. I love my children who continue to make me sooo very proud to be their mother. I enjoy watching TV...it will be on all day, but I don't watch it all the time. Mostly I'm online.....or drawing, or lately, I've been doing puzzles. I love doing crossword puzzles...and other than that...I read. In the Spring time and Summer, I play in my Garden, and love gardening...My passions are: Photography....decorating my house....(I work as an interior designer, and freelance photographer)...I enjoy creating crafts...and mosaic artworks. I am defintely a very creative, and artistic person.
I'm a SCORPION...Born November 10, 1965...born in the middle of the biggest North Eastern Blackout in 1965. The lights went out at around 5 pm Nov.9th, and my mother went into labor with me an hour later...lol.
She loves to tell me how she walked down 12 flights of stairs, to pitch black outdoors. It was a snowy night...and could not get a cab, so she walked several blocks until she finally got a cab...drove to the hospital, where they did not have a generator up and running, so I was born into candle light..which is probably why I have always been mistified by candles and candle light....way before they even became a fad...or a trend. I've always have a candle lit everyday in my home...I love the lighting, and I especially love the well scented ones...I make my own candles of course, being so handy and all. Sometimes I just gather all the candles that have left over wax in the bottom of the jar, and mix the waxes, and melt them to create my own new scented candle...All I have to do is add a new wick. (Gosh, I'm talking alot, huh?...and I said this was the short version...sorry, that's another fact about me...I can talk!...My boyfriend would attest to that...actually pretty much everyone who's ever known me would testify to the fact that I have the gift of GAB!...)
So I'll finish this off. I hope I helped a little in letting you into my crazy world. I left out the really interesting, disfunctional stuff. Next time....or just ask me anything you would like to know..as long as it's respectable...I will be more than happy to let you know...
Blessings,
Michelle
SCORPION GODDESS
ps...by the way, all that I've said above is who I am now...but I have changed my life and lifestlye so much from my "haydays"..if I sound boring to you...trust me, I had my share of excitement. Growing up in the Lower East Side of New York City...I can tell you some wild and crazy stories...like, I used to be a professinal dancer...and performed in a few dance videos...and also, that I sing...and at age 12, I sung in Carnegie Hall, here in NY....(a famous place)....so I've been around lol....
Music
I listen to all kinds of music.
I enjoy anything with a really serious beat....as I get older, my taste has changed. My children listen to rap, and there is some that I like..like Kanye West, P Diddy, 50 cents, Nelly, Dr. Dre, Biggy Smalls, The soul Sonic Force, I enjoy also Regeaton...R&B music. I also enjoy the golden oldies...and harmonic groups. like Boys to men...music from the 50's and 60's....Love Ballards...Singers I enjoy are: Alicia Keys, Pink, Black eye peas, fiona, rhianna, Gloria Estefan, JLO, Sade, Madonna, Frank Sinatra, Nat King Cole, Dean Martin, Perry Cuomo, Mario Lonza, Love the Oldie singing groups, like "The Pretenders"..."Earth wind and fire"...."Freddy mercury from "Queen"..."The Who"...Elvis,...TLC, Billy Holiday, Nina Simone, Whitney Houston, Mariah Carey, The Fugees, Creed, Lincoln Park, Enya, Janet Jackson, Eddie Santiago, Tito puentes, Julio Eglesia, Celia Cruz, Corina, ALL FREESTYLE MUSIC ROCKS!!!!!, TKA, K7, Johnny O, Anastacia, Lil Suzy, Africa Bambata, Under ground House Music...Techno...,Seal, Eminem, Stacy Latasaw, The Police, Firehouse, Missy Elliot, Justin TimberlakeOMG...I can go on, and on. There are so many artist I like....
Movies
My favortie Movie is "Breakfast at Tiffany's"....with Audrey Hepburn. I love...Scary movies..and the all time scary movie's are: "The Excorsist"..."The Evil Dead"...The Omen"..."The Excorcism of Emily Rose".."Audrey Rose".."The Entity"..."The Amityville Horror"...I love Santanic movies...don't ask, but they really scare the crap out of me!..LOL. But I love All kinds of movies. Oldies Black and white movies too the latest Drama, Suspenceful movies. I love Action Movies...So I couls basically watch any kind that is well done in any genre. It depends on what mood I'm in..but my first preference is Horror Movies.
TV
I love all kinds of Learning shows...so I love the channels, TLC, DISCOVERY, HISTORY CHANNEL, BIO CHANNEL...I love CSI...Forensic shows. COPS...,
My recent introduction to the HBO series..Dexter, and "The Tudors"...I really dislike reality shows...except American Idol, and Dancing with the stars....
We usually try and find some scary to watch on TV. I have lately been recording all the "Charmed" episodes on my DVR.
I like to watch "Bob Ross" Paint...Oh and my new Channel I like to watch is the "Court tv Channel" I don't get into too much "Sitcom" shows, but I did love "Friends", "Seinfeld", "I Love Lucy"..(still my most favorite TV Show). and love Jeopardy...I like to see how smart I am..LOL.
Books
well, I haven't read many books throughout my life, unless you count Magazines...but there have been a few that I did enjoy...but The Bible is one of the best reads....I read mostly Self Help books...and my favorite book is "The Language of Letting Go"...written by my favorite Writer..."Melody Beattie".
Likes
I like a lot of stuff, as I wrote before....Gardening, drawing, watching TV, crafts, puzzles, crosswords, eating..lol, beach combing...(I have a house on the water...with our private beach..how very blessed we are!)
Honest People, a good laugh, good food, (did I mention that..lol)...more to follow...
Dislikes
Phoney people, liars, lima beans, chicken skin, drugs or alchol, bad food, boring shows, my boyfriend, (right now),...gossipers, negative people, and abusive people, feeling depressed....etc..
Hobbies
Good God, how many time do they want to know what your hobbies are.....yeash, I've said enough about that.
Vices
smoking cigarettes..my boyfriend, being a little sloppy sometimes when I'm tired, I just throw my clothes around. Sometimes I curse too much. Yelling and being a little snotty at times..(depending on who it is...like my boyfriend..LOL)..another vice, laziness...procrastination, lack of motivation at times...none caring at times of end results...basically...I can be little negative myself...but that's why I read self-help books, talk to someone, and try and change what I call my "Character Defects"....It's a process and a Journey. One thing I can say is that I do learn from my mistakes, but mostly I learn from other's mistakes.
Virtues
My virtues are my HONESTY and LOYALTY.. I am probably so Honest, that I rarely tell a lie. And I am tremendously Loyal. When I love you... I LOVE YOU HARD!...I am also very respectful to those who deserve my respect. I try not to judge others...I am very caring and very sincere. I have an abundance of Love, and I enjoy displaying it on those that I care for. I am a very good friend, and a good listener. I possess many good qualities that I thank my Grandmother for bestowing them upon me.
Heroes
My hero is my Daughter. She is handicapped, with Cerebral Palsy. She's in a Wheel chair for life, and Quadraplegic, and she is one of the most lovliest people I know. She's amazing, shes brave, and she is so upbeat. She is an angel. She is rarely ever in a bad mood, and even with all her limitations, she has a wonderful outlook on life. She always puts a smile on my face. If I were in her shoes, I don't know how I'd handle being handicapped. she's never even kissed a boy, and she's 25. I feel so bad, at times I would blame myself for her condition, though it was God's will, as they say. But no matter what, she is the light of my life. My first born, and my only girl. I have 4 other boys...She truly has been blessed with a loving heart...What God took from her physically, he gave to her in good naturednest.
She's my HERO!
My name is Michelle...a.k.a."SCORPION GODDESS"...I call myself a "Witch in Training". I am constantly doing research and learning various paths in Paganism.
I would love it if you can list your favorite spells, effective spells. I want to know all that I can about creating, and practicing Magick.
If you like, you can email them directly to me at: nywoman33@optonline.net or just post a reply to this comment.
Thank you all so very much. May your tomorrow be filled lots of love, serenity and creativity....
Thursday, November 15, 2007, 09:12 PM EST [General]
I am so glad that I came across this site. It seems that here is where I can find "Like minded" individuals, and share from eachother's experiences, and knowledge.
Friendships are a rare commodity. I sure know that. So I'm looking for friendship. And I guess everyone seeks acknowledgement.
I've been studying various religions and spiritual plains.
I finally feel at home calling myself a "witch" and studying the various roots to Paganism and Spiritual connections.
I consider myself to be a Christian Wiccan...(I made that up...not really of the "Christian Religion, but because I do believe in Jesus Christ, I use that title.).
I believe in Magick, I believe in Miracles, I believe in Angels, and Saints, and Spirits and my Ancestors. I love reading of many faiths....from Hindu, too Buddism, and so on. I find it all to have some form of a common ground. But I love Wiccan, the "Old Original Religion"...the "Nature based Religion and beliefs"
I am studying up on Magick, and spell crafting. I want to learn as much as possible, and take only with me what I feel to be my truth and belief....before I perform such things as spells....though I've already casted a few spells....and have witnessed
various outcomes...I feel that I need to learne more relaxing techniques because I am under so much stess these past few years, and it hasn't slowed down much, so my focus
is off at times, so I am learning to Meditate again, and utilize the many
tools I have, such as 'Self-help' books, and the many pages of wisdom that are written
in certain books. I learn from "experience"...through trial and error, I learn from mistakes and other people's mistakes.
I give 100% when I am dedicated to somthing or someone.
I am passionate about life, and I know for a fact that I can shape my own "destiny" with the proper
guidance and support, and being pointed to the right direction...There is nothing I can't resolve.
I will come to my own conclusions in the end... I always do.
Thank you dear friend for reading what I have written. It is important to me when people
get a feel for what I'm about. I have no problems asking questions..."The only stupid
question is the one not asked."
"May you all have wonderful days ahead,....I hope to hear from you...."
Thursday, November 15, 2007, 08:47 PM EST [General]
Hi all, I'm very new to this site. I came across it accidently. I would just like some feedback regarding this site. Like how long has it been up and running? And, Is it a good place to meet others who are practicing some form of Paganism, or Wicca, and if so, is it a good site to swap Info, and techniques, or spells and such.....
I created a fast profile, but will do more changes when I find more time. I would imagine this site is like "Myspace" in which I have a page....My URL is: myspace.com/livefreeordye
I welcome new friends. Please no request from guys who are looking for anyform of romance....I'm in a long term relationship, and am not interested in that kind of friendship. I'm looking for people who have similar likes as me, and perhaps would like to just chat, or tried trader secrets of the "craft"...or to just get to know one another. I like meeting new people. Especially since for the past couple of years, I've been "friendless", other than those that I speak to online....at Myspace, I have no friends at all, except my Boyfriend, who I've been with for over 11 years.....but we've been getting on eachother's nerves lately, so I am feeling mighty lonely.
I have always been very social, and have always had an abundance of friends. It's just been the past couple of years, that I pretty much lost touch with the few people who I did consider my friends. Some got married and moved on, some just moved, and well, I'm mostly to blame. I go through phases where I close up, and isolate. I push people away at times, without realizing it. But I worked on that with my last friend. We were the best of friends. I am a recovering Addict, and we had met in a 12 step meeting, in recovery. We were close from the start. She had asked me to "sponsor" her in the program. I was even in her wedding. But when she relapsed and started drinking again, she changed, and could be cruel at times....we had a stupid argument regarding her attitude, which she had been giving lately...well, when my buttons are pressed, I can say some wild shit. But basically I had been holding on to a resentment with her for some of the shit she put me through. I always thought she was a loving caring person and friend...but she changed also once she left her marriage in under a year that they were married. She was having an affair with a married man, and every time I tried to be there for her, it was never enough.
So she got some of her slingers in, and hurt me, and I barked right back at her. After a few months, I really started missing her, and I tried to talk to her, but she basically blew me off, saying that people come and go in one's life...(something I taught her about, only for her to try and use it on me), and that she wished to no longer be friends with me. Well I was shocked and angry...but eventually I calmed down. But I feel hurt, and betrayed. I miss her something awful. She was such a lovely person when she wasn't drinking....but as soon as she started, she changed ino someone I've never had to encounter. When we were friends, there was nothing that we would not do for eachother. I miss her. I want to call her on her cell phone and talk with her, but I haven't worked up enougn courage. I don't feel like getting rejected again. I did the best I could do. She was a pretty "High maintainance" friend. So I figure, her loss.
Well enough of that crap....I guess I just need to share that with you.
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